Wednesday, January 20, 2010

The journey from 'Writer' to 'Author'.

I have received an offer of publication, which is fantastic, however I was impatient and submitted to quite a few and have not yet heard back from most of them. I have since learnt that this is a common thing for 'green' authors to do. The recommended process is to submit to one or two and wait to hear back but I was just bursting and could not bear to wait six weeks for a rejection before sending another submission out.

On one hand my heart is telling me, 'just go for it, you may only get one acceptance package.' On the other hand I am sceptical because it is a pay for publishing company. They do not appear to be a vanity publisher but it is still less desirable in the eyes of some. The internet is rife with people voicing opinions about things that they disagree on. Fortunately they do not voice particular issues with this publisher - just annoyance at subsidy publishing in general. So when I did find reviews on the publisher the news was favourable.

I suppose that is the curse of being a newbie to the scene, and perhaps there will be many confusing situations before I get it right. For now, I am consumed by the choice, to pay to publish or not to pay to publish. I still do not know, and for the moment I think I am just going to keep learning and hoping that my dream offer will come in the mail and I can publish my dream special edition the way I want it to be...(but aren't we all?)

Love Kitty

Monday, January 4, 2010

The compelling force of our minds and our dreams

If I had to ask myself where did it all start for me, I would have to remember a time that I do not ever wish to revisit. However, I am old enough now to accept that if I didn't endure that time, I would not be who I am today.

From a very early age I witnessed things a child should never see, and dealt with a barrage of mental, physical and sexual abuse. The who's, why's and wherefore's are not important to delve into. What is important is where it all sent me.

I paid no heed to the life around me, instead sinking into a fantasy world. Sometimes it enveloped me and sometimes it terrified me, but it was mine, I made it, and there I stayed.

So at the age of about 10, I began to write things. I won awards at school and I was encouraged to pursue my talent. The things I wrote at school were quite trivial and usually happy, but the things I wrote at home were much different. They were abstract and surreal, and altogether confusing to anyone but me. On the odd occasion I would attempt to pen the true story of my life but I could never do it justice to the memories and the pain. And so, I stopped writing, because I began to confuse even myself. Plus there was a part of me that did not want those things to be documented for it might give them a life that I did not want those demons to have.

Instead I started singing. I was good, very good. With a little tuition I could have been fantastic. It was an outlet that both thrilled and tortured me. I would sing harrowing songs from artists that I felt complimented my pain and my own past. In my room alone I would sob and I would sing, and I would feel somehow purged and yet still never complete. I was yearning to be noticed, for my inner fire to be seen by someone, by anyone.

There is much, much more but that is just the beginning. Please feel free to comment or to add your own beginnings. I think that there is much depth to humanity that is never spoken for fear of mockery. There will be no mockery here, you are all welcome!

Love Kitty...

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Greetings from the other side...


I am starting this site to bring together those of us in the fantasy world that like things a little bit darker. Feel free to post your thoughts and discussions on all things with talons, wings, demonic souls and other worldly heritage.

My only request is that you not hold back. Fantasy is the perfect genre for a writer to experiment with landscapes, fight scenes and magic. More often than not however the focus is on the lighter side.

Welcome to the dark side!

Here we toy with sorcery, lust, betrayal, ritual sacrifice and making our heroes go through hell before vindication!!

Love from Kitty